7 weeks still feel awful

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Registered: 01-17-2007
7 weeks still feel awful
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Tue, 02-27-2007 - 11:21am
it's been 7 weeks NC.I still wake up feeling horrible.I have been "doing" all the right things,reading the breakup books,going to counseling,trying to be nice to myself.I am taking an anti depressant,it has helped a little,at least i'm not continuesly crying like before.Just feel like a zombie.I lost my job,also b/c i worked for his sister.This is the hardest thing i have ever gone through.I did have a good day on Sunday,even felt "normal",i went to church & it did a world of difference.My deal is i keep worrying about HIM! What is wrong with me? He's the one who BROKE MY HEART! They say time heals all wounds,i just wish i didn't feel like this.We were together for 2 years,I've heard it takes 1/2 the time you were together to get over someone.Thanks for reading this,just felt the NEED to vent.as all of my friends & family are so sick of hearing my stuff.Does it ever go away? Surely i won't feel like this forever....I can only pray not.
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Registered: 02-05-2007
Tue, 02-27-2007 - 11:48am
Hi crushedheart and welcome to the board.
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Registered: 01-17-2007
Tue, 02-27-2007 - 11:54am
Hi it win flame,
actually i have been on the board for about 2 mo's now.my story was the one he called the cops,when i moved out.I don't know how to retrieve my prior posts,sorry.Thanks for your reply.It makes me feel so much better to know there are caring folks like you out there to give encouargement.this just seems never ending.Thank you,for listening.
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Registered: 02-11-2007
Tue, 02-27-2007 - 12:20pm
HI there
just wanted to say that I understand how you feel. I only dated my guy for 6 months and he broke it off last week..(on the phone) and I feel devastated. I dont know why I am having such a hard time and just made an appointment to see a counselor. I think something is wrong with me when it comes to relationships period. I feel just like you do..depressed, off and on crying all the time...cant sleep more than a couple of hours at a time and I'm not eating well..just dont have an appetite. He IM'd me yesterday just making small talk. Of course that gave me "hope" but I have not heard from him today.
I hate feeling like this..and mornings are worst when you wake up and for a split second you forget that you broke up..and then it hits you and you have that sinking feeling in your stomach...
I hope this goes away soon.
I relive the relationship over and over and over and wonder what I could have done differently to make it work. My family and friends are sick of me talking about it too..there really isnt anything they can do for me.
so..if you want to email me..feel free :o)
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Registered: 02-05-2007
Tue, 02-27-2007 - 12:35pm

I thought your name seemed familiar.

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Registered: 01-17-2007
Tue, 02-27-2007 - 2:28pm
Dear Itwinflame,
Thank you for your prompt response!Wow! I really can't believe i have written so many posts! Thank You for your suggestion of writing stuff down on index cards.After your last post i went & wrote in my journal,too.This is a very slow, brutal process & I appreciate all of your help!
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Registered: 01-20-2004
Tue, 02-27-2007 - 5:02pm
Oh my god, that's so true about the mornings isn't it? I feel exactly the same way. When you're just waking up and still sleepy it's like your mind hasn't allowed you to catch up yet. And then when you realize what's going on, it's like a wave of sheer depression just takes over. It's so awful!!