AHHHHHH!!!!
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| Mon, 07-30-2007 - 9:58am |
so saturday was supposed to be the wedding that my ex and i go together ( he broke up with me 2 weeks ago,but most of you know that because ive been posting on here like a mad woman :) )....anyway, in the back of my mind i thought...hmmm, maybe at the wedding he will realize he misses me or he made a mistake ( he broke up with me saying " I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, BUT I DONT SEE A FUTURE WITH US" )...ALL THE HAPPY COUPLES, or his bestfriends getting married, i really really thought that would do it...YES I KNOW, I AM LIVING IN A FAIRY TALE WORLD, AND HES NOT COMING BACK...but i had some small hope. my brother tells me he sat there, didnt dance...and everytime they would look at eachother he had sad eyes. his sister also told me, he was upset and did not have a good time.
now, my question is this....i really dont know if he was sad, or bored just because HE WAS SINGLE WITHOUT A DATE, or because he missed me. either way, guess it didnt matter BUT....if he missed me, why couldt i have recieved a call, text? even a drunk call or text? NOTHING!
how do i get it through my head...HES NOT COMING BACK?!!!! we were long distance and he just came home for two weeks ( for our vacation and the wedding), friday... and i asked if we could talk ( THINKING IF WE WERE IN PERSON HE WOULD CHANGE HIS MIND)...he said hed love to see me, but he WONT CHANGE HIS MIND, and itll make things harder because we will end up regretting things. SO BASICALLY, ( yes i get it, hes doing me a favor and trying to make it easier), this guy would rather not see me, or call me, or text me ( even if he misses me or is drunk), and would rather not see me because we will end up having sex and he wont change his mind( yes i know, thats better for me, becuase itll make it much harder if we do).....THEN SEE ME AT ALL? i dont get it!!
how does a person just stop loving someone??? or missing theM? we spent so much of our time talking to one another....and after 2 weeks, thats it? HES OVER IT?! DOESNT CARE ANYMORE?? HOW?!?!?!?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just because he's not acting on any of his feelings, doesn't mean he's not feeling them. If he called you, made contact, it would only further your FALSE hope.