Almost a week

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Registered: 03-15-2005
Almost a week
Thu, 08-18-2005 - 2:47pm

Hello all.

It'll be a week on Friday that I broke up with my man. We were together for almost three years. About a year and a half into our relationship, he stopped almost all physical affection towards me. He said he's just not "all lovey dovey" but yet he was an avid internet porn viewer. I tried and tried to just be o.k. with it but, I never was. He is clinically depressed. Takes Zoloft and is a heavy pot smoker. I acted out in a lot of ways. Such as: lying to him, staying out all night with friends, spending money I didn't have, etc. Eventually I hated myself too much and decided to get better. His psychiatrist put him on heavy meds but he's still smoking the weed. He calls me bawling and sends me emails that make me feel so horrible. I know it's not all my fault but it's still very hard. It will get better I'm sure but right now, it's difficult. Thanks for listening.