Before and After

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Registered: 06-06-2004
Before and After
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Wed, 12-07-2005 - 8:29pm
Hi everyone,
Does anyone else seem to be looking at the world in terms of "before and after" the breakup? For the first time in 3 nights, I ate something besides oatmeal for dinner, but I was getting the Lean Cuisine out of the freezer and thinking "I bought this BEFORE..before the devastation, when I was still happy, etc." I pull out a clean article of clothing and think, "I washed this BEFORE." I was working on a power point for school and thinking "I started this BEFORE". I watched "The Amazing Race" last night and thougt "I watched the last episode BEFORE". These thoughts just pop up, unbidden and I'm getting sick of it!
Laura
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Registered: 12-02-2005
In reply to: lasouche
Thu, 12-08-2005 - 10:31pm
Hey Laura,
I know what you mean about the before and afters. Sometimes I forget things like, for instance, tonight is the Xmas party at work. But I don't work there anymore (I had to quit when I left my husband, its too far away). It just gets so hard to keep track of what was and what is. And it brings on sad feelings and memories because it reminds you of how things used to be. But its all a part of the "process" right? I hope your days and nights are getting better for you Laura, I've been keeping up on your threads. Have a good one.
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Registered: 06-06-2004
In reply to: lasouche
Fri, 12-09-2005 - 10:33am
Hi the jaded,
Thanks for your reply. You're right, it's all part of the process (stupid process!). It's just hard. Sometimes I feel better, but I know there are rough waters ahead and that's a scary thought. I appreciate having this board to come to and people like you for support!
Laura