The anger and frustration is setting in

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Registered: 09-18-2004
The anger and frustration is setting in
Wed, 05-24-2006 - 7:54am

A friend told me that this is part of the grieving stage.

For the last little while, my feelings of sadness have been mixed with those of utter anger. Even though I know it was hard for him to say something for six months, I feel like I was acted to, that the last six months were just a big play, a big joke.

I'm angry because nothing was ever said. I think this was going on for a lot longer, because you just don't wake up one day and realize you are no longer in love with the person. Sure, he tried, but if someone asked me in March what I felt of the relationship, I would have said I never felt more loved. Granted, that was all a huge lie.

And to not know why you felt this way! I could see if there was a reason, but he wouldn't have changed a thing, nothing. He just didn't know why, but surely felt the loss of love.

I just feel like an idiot for getting my heart broken again. The other mind-boggling issue is the *friend* thing. No I can't just flip over to being your friend! He was already in that mode the second after we *officially* ended it! Well, more like months and months before that.

I know his intention was not to hurt me, but I think it would have hurt a hell of a lot worse if he would have talked to me back when all this first started, instead of waiting for half a year, when I thought for sure he was in love with me. I guess hindsight is 20/20. I guess I really don't know how it feels unless I was directly in his shoes.

I just don't get it.