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Anyone out there tonight?
| Tue, 09-14-2004 - 8:12pm |
I'm working until 10 tonight, and I'm actually sitting here at work waiting for my ex to call me, hoping he may take some pity on me and call to say hi, to say we can try again. Isn't that pathetic? Is anyone out there now? What are you feeling right now? Are we going to survive this?

Hugs, Laura
I'm curious - you gave me such great advise about telling my ex to not contact me but here you are in contact still with yours.
One thing that I learned - the more that I heard from him and was with him, the more it gave me the information I needed to know it wasn't right and it was time to leave.
For example (after the breakup), although his card was a bit flowery, it said nothing about wanting to try to work on things. His voice mails were full of apologies as to him being "different" from everyone else and I gave him so much love and support and yada yada yada. I came to realize it was all about HIM and his needs and nothing about me. He didn't cherish me, respect me, adore me, admire me, etc. He was in love with my adoration of him. Why in the world would I want to be with someone who didn't or couldn't love me the way I needed to be loved? And, the bottom line, HE WON'T change. He's 38 - how old are you?
You deserve to be loved and cherished - and if after 7 months he has done all this crap you should thank him for making it so much easier for you to move on!
Anyway, I say all this now because at this moment I am standing up for myself.
Good luck but when you finally have had enough you will do something about it and not have to hang on to him to "control" you.
Another thing, it's always great to feel like you have some control. Although my intent was not to hurt the ex, and I was trying to be cognitive of it, I feel good that I told him to not contact me and I would contact him if and when I felt I could be friends.
Love, Curious