To Be..Or Not To Be??

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Registered: 02-26-2007
To Be..Or Not To Be??
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Mon, 02-26-2007 - 3:15am
Well all i ca say is it isnt my first time of breaking up, so why is it so god damn hard? I've been with Gav a year ad a half things was great..(thats how it is) and moth after month we was getting fed up of eachother, he knew i wasnt happy but i had to try ad change my self to make me happy so i wouldnt hurt him...A few sundays a go he was at the pub with his uncle ad didnt know what time he'd be back so i phoned my friend to see if she wanted to go for a drink with me seeing as i didnt know where he was, i sent him a text to say if your in the mood, come up to see us when u get home..(So he did) And i was called a spiteful bi*ch because he says i went out because he did..Why does that make me spiteful?? Such a horrible word! But i am only 20 and hes 21..Arent we meant to enjoy our selves? Why should i sit in my house all alone while hes out drinking and having a good time?
So i finished it yesterday not only because of what he said, i think its bee building up, its so hard coping with the heartache..Can anyone give me any advice or support out there? Hes phoning me, apologising for what he said but im thinking i deserve better than this surley! Should i carry on and be on my own and sort my self out and let him do the same? Why do i keep crying apart from the fact im used to him being here..Why do i feel guilty for the things hes said and done?
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Registered: 02-05-2007
Mon, 02-26-2007 - 12:25pm

Hi Michelle and welcome to the board.

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Registered: 10-16-2006
Mon, 02-26-2007 - 12:26pm
I'm not the person who should be giving out advice right now, but really, if you think it can be saved and it should be saved, he's worth it, than try your best. However, if you are unhappy and you are staying because its comfortable than you shouldn't stay.