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| Sun, 10-07-2007 - 7:15pm |
Hello everyone,
I am here because I am having a really tough weekend.
I don't know how to get up from this.
It has been two weeks and I am not getting better. In fact, things are getting a smidgen worse. I'm depressed.
All i do is mope and wallow and sit on my couch replaying the last year of my relationship in my head.
Blaming myself. Cringing when I think of ways I could have been a better girlfriend and possibly salvaging the relationship.
In my skewed mind right now I only blame myself. He is on the pedestal and perfect boyfriend.
I don't know how to GET UP from this.
It has only been a few weeks, is this OK?
I don't want to wallow, but I just feel like doing little else.
I try to hang out with the --few friends-- i have. But it only depresses me more. Last night I went out and I felt so incredibly lonely and alone. I was taking and pretending, but all I kept thinking was how i want my LIFE back with my ex.
i have to start over again. all over. And it makes me cringe.
I can't seem to muster up the enthusiasm to do this.
I need help. I am going to therapy, but it will take some time, i am sure.
I am trying to figure out what to do with my career. My future. whether or not I will move back home ( i stayed where I am living for my ex), what career will i switch to (i am done with my career after working in it for 14 years.)
I just feel so overwhelmed.
How do i keep myself from slipping into depression?

Welcome to the board paprgrrl,
Only take 50% of the blame... there are two people in every relationship.