Breaking up when you still love each oth
Find a Conversation
| Sun, 09-30-2007 - 11:38am |
I know it just happened this weekend, but I feel like my world ended. I never knew your eyes could burn from crying too much.
And the hardest part is after 2 1/2 years he said it was because he loved me and felt like I deserved better. That if he cared less about me, he would have just strung me on.
He said it had to end eventually because he doesn't see himself ever marrying or having kids, that there was one point when that was what he wanted but not anymore. That he wants to be able to just pick up and leave the country when he wants and that's not fair to anybody. And it's not like I was pushing for wedding bells and kids, but I couldn't bear never.
But even during the break up he was the greatest guy. He told me he wouldn't call for a couple weeks but that if I ever needed anything to remember that we were still friends, and said all the nice things that he sometimes held back on while we were dating. He said that he knew it had to end and felt so bad about it that he had been trying to push me away so I'd do the breaking up, but he saw that I couldn't bear to and was just walking around miserable, and that he couldn't stand to do that anymore. He insisted I take a taxi and gave the driver money and my address because he thought I was too upset to take the subway, and it was his fault.
And my life seems so incomplete. I woke up hours early because I didn't have our nightly two hour conversation to keep me up. Who still has two hours of stuff to talk about daily after 2 1/2 years? I've broken up before, but I've never been like this. I just don't know what to do. I know it's too early to be thinking of moving on, but I don't think that I could possibly find someone I'd love more. And as I said in the beginning I just feel like my world is shattered. And I just need someone to tell me that it will get pieced back together cause right now I can't imagine that.

Pages
how do i get closure, when i know in my heart he is through with this relationship--and he won't break up--even when he has said ..he's not ready for the level of relationship, i'm looking for...
Welcome to the board overthinking,
Closure is something you give yourself.
Pages