Caught him red handed
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|Sat, 06-14-2014 - 2:00pm|
I haven't been here for years, but now I feel the need; maybe to commiserate with others who have found themselves in this position, and perhaps have seen the light at the end of the tunnel.
My SO and I were together 10 years, never married in name, but it FELT like a marriage. Before we met, there were always stories of he and his wife of 28 years cheating on each other, but I never had any evidence that the same thing was happening. UNTIL.....I called him one night, there was no answer, and thinking he might be sick (he's had some health problems), I drove over to the shock of my life. He and a girl coming out of the bedroom.
This was only a few weeks ago, and I understand I'm still in the angry and grieving stages, and I am in the hands of a therapist, but I seriously don't know how to deal with these moments of crippling rage and anxiety. Has he been making a fool of me all these years? Has any of it been real? I thought we were at the stage of life where we could be secure and comfortable (I'm 55 and he's 69), that this wasn't even an issue anymore.
I feel like a bomb has gone off in my life, and I don't know how to pull the scattered pieces back together.