Confusion..what does this mean?
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| Tue, 06-05-2007 - 11:20am |
I recently decided to make a change in my life for the better. I decided to leave my boyfriend of two years and move back to my home town. We lived together for about 18 months of that timeframe and it was just miserable. In the early beginning of 2007 I decided to leave the home we made together because I had slipped back into my depression and was miserable every day. When I left, he was ok, he told me he thought it was better for us to not live together anymore, however, asked if we could at least try to make something work and not just end it all. I agreed because I really did love him. So for the first few weeks, it was great. We got along better, talked better to each other, didn't fight. Then, he moved back into our old roomates home and thats when things started to change. Our visits went to non existant, our phonecalls never happened and anytime I needed to get ahold of him, the only way I could was through text messaging. Which, by the way, irked the hell out of me.
A few weeks ago was his fathers 50th birthday party. He asked me to go and I agreed. It was a good time. He informed me that he had a hotel room near the restaurant that the party was at, and that he wanted me to stay there so I could drink and have a good time. (mind you when i moved home, we were an hour away in distance from each other). That night after the party...inevitably, we slept together, and we had a wonderful night where he told me he still saw a future with me, marriage, kids, ect...I was happy. Maybe there was hope for us?? STOP!
There isnt hope....All the things he told me, where just to get me into bed I believe now. The last 5 days he has become a different person. I've only called him about 3 times in five days, which to me...is too much. I've sent him some text messages but no response.....Until today. He tells me...again in a text message...That he needs space, a few days to think, and that he wanted me to leave him alone. I'm so confused...I told him don't bother, I'm not going to wait and wait for him. I'm not his puppet.
I have taken his numbers out of my phone, deleted his email address from my book and don't want any contact with him. But alas, I am crying my eyes out,I cant stop. I dont know why I love someone who could say things to me. He accuses me of cheating. I told him I was in bed for days, miserable and crying...and he replies to me..."In bed for three days huh? Whats his name?" How can he be so heartless to me? He says he cares and loves me...but how can someone who loves you say things like that to you. Am I doing the right thing? Or do I wait for him to make up his mind?
Monicalynn

Welcome to the board monicalynn1013,
You are doing the right thing. He's having his cake and eating it to.