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Could it be anymore painful?
| Fri, 06-30-2006 - 1:17pm |
Hello guys Im so glad I found this board. Im taking a break from a four year live in relationship. He is 27 I am 24. We had our share of problems and bad luck. I started to notice a change in him four months ago. He became less attentive. We started fighting more and more. And I just felt like he didnt love me anymore. We lost our baby back in NOv its been 8 months and I am suffering from severe depression from it. I guess this has put a damper on his life. With my constant moodiness. He asked me to go on meds. But i didnt want to feel like some quack. Althrough I have used the in the past and I am on them now through the "breakup" He told me He wasnt going to marry me and be miserable(sp) the rest of his life. That was the last straw I moved out. Its been 5 weeks. But we been seeing each other every other day and on the phone everyday. At first he wanted me to move back in now He doesnt know what he wants anymore. He said he cant explain it he doesnt know why but he doesnt feel the same. he loves me and he wants to have another baby with me bt he cant deal witht he fighting. We went to counseling once. And have another scheduled on the 16th. He said he doesnt know if that will help we just have had so much bad stuff happen in this relationship. he said there are no good memories anymore. I cried and I cried. I feel like he calls me to make sure Im still here. But as soon as I come around alot He pushes me away again. Because he doesnt know what he wants. Living together for 3 yrs it now feels like a marriage I feel like this is a divorce and on top of it we lost our baby together. Can someone please give me some insight? I lost 12 pounds these last few weeks I cant eat sleep. I feel like everything is falling apart in my life. I know its depression. I just want to be happy even if I cant have him back. Now that we lost our daug if i lose him too i dont think thats possible.

Hi. Welcome to the boards. I'm sorry you are going through this. Break-ups are the worst. I feel they are sometimes worse than death.
Trust me when I say it does get better. You will heal.
Its good that you and your ex are still talking, but maybe if you two took some time apart without talking for awhile it can help him see what he really wants.
The whole no contact thing is very difficult, but it is possible. I did it for 4 weeks, until I finally called my ex. We are talking again, but just on the phone.
Continue to post on these boards, you'll get lots of help and support.
~Amber~