Crashed....
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| Sun, 06-03-2007 - 10:44pm |
We broke up 8 days ago now, and it has been a slow, painful, empty, lost week.
I had been going well with the NC thing, it was tough, and there were times when I felt like I could just could not resist, but I didn't call him and I was proud of that.
Now, this morning, he called me. I was sitting at my desk at work, and the phone rang, and it was him. I told him that I would call him back, and went out of the office to do that. I called him back, and he said that he was busy (he works a lot outdoors and gets approached by members of the public all the time) and he would call *me* back.
So he called back, and it was just a "how are you" sort of call. He said that he has had his moments where it has been hard but he feels like he has started a new chapter in his life.. He said there was noone else, he's not even thinking at the moment of meeting anyone else.. he misses me but he doesn't want to be with me..
he said that he has been keeping busy, doing heaps of riding, he took another girl on the back of his motorbike (THAT cut pretty badly...) but again, he says that they are friends, and I do believe him because he doesn't play games...
I asked him if he felt like he made the right decision, and he said yeah, he's happy with his decision at the moment..
Meanwhile, I feel like I have crashed straight back to square one.. I don't know what to do now... Just feel completely lost and confused again..

Hi, I am sorry for your suffering, we have all been there, thats why we support one another on this board, keep posting!!!
I have done the same in the past, went so long, felt alittle better, then HE CALLS, all hope starts up again only to be disappointed with the outcome. Yes, you feel like you are back to square one, but you have seen what the one week brought you, him caving in and calling YOU! So, keep the NC up, and when he does call again, DONT ANSWER!!! He choses not to be a part of your life anymore, well show him, how life without you will be like. He cant call at any given time, that is wrong... and I would maybe tell him so. I told my ex.... "you let me go, so let me go!" It worked, and he was miserable about my not answering his calls... kept calling, then emailing me... "why aren't you answering my calls?" WELL, HELLO, you are no longer a priority I told him eventually, and that hurt, but hey, he made the bed, now go lay in it and feel sorry for yourself!!!
Keep up the NC thing, I mean nothing... and I strongly believe what is meant to be, will be!!!
Keep us informed!
Hugs,
Louise
Welcome to the board dagoddess76,
And you need to know all this because.....???