Cut the ties tonight

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Registered: 11-09-2004
Cut the ties tonight
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Sun, 05-21-2006 - 12:01am

Tonight I told my ex over MSN that I could not speak to him anymore, or at least until I was over him. It hurt so much to say it and I cried for a half hour afterwards, but I did it and I know things will be better now. I also told him that he has NO idea of how much he hurt me and I need to figure things out and put things back together in my life and until then I cannot speak to him. He seemed to be unfazed, just going "I'm so sorry". Yeah right. I don't think he is. He has no idea how hard this has been for me and therefore he really doesn't deserve to be a part of my life anyway.

I'm so upset right now though. I've had the worst day and I just want to go to sleep and wake up when I am over him. I hate still being in love with him.

-J

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 05-21-2006 - 3:11am

Just wanted to send you a big cyber hug...you did the right thing for you, but I know it's hard.

And I totally know that feeling of wanting to fast forward to the point where I'm just over him...

Hang in there. You took a big step in the right direction today. It won't be easy to stick with no contact, but it will pay off in the end.

Sheri

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Registered: 11-09-2004
Tue, 05-23-2006 - 11:41pm

Thanks for your sweet words! I am very sad but ultimately my anxiety level has dropped a great deal and that is most important.

-J