the day after, it was me but...
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| Sat, 01-20-2007 - 1:04pm |
Its the first day after and it was my decision, or rather a mutual decision to break up. The relationship was falling apart basically and I felt like i had no other option than to break up with him after we held a state of the union so to speak. some background: we starting dating around march last yr and i fell for him. hard. he broke up with in august and i was very upset. i had never felt that way about a boyfriend before. we got back together a month later. i knew that relationships that break up and get back together rarely work out but i wanted to follow my heart and try. we've ben together since then until yesterday. but i've been unhappy with the relationship for awhile. he wasn't treating me right. he wouldn't call me, we didn't spend anytime together, he basically didn't awknowledge my presence. i wanted to see if this was a slump, just a bump in the road but my feelings of being neglected didn't go away and he hadn't changed after i talked to him about numerous times. He was treating me like crap and i had had enough. Yesterday i callled him to talk about whats going with us. I didn't intend to break up with him but i had already been thinking that i might have to. i told him how i felt like we weren't in a relationship anymore etc and everything that had been bothering me before. He said he knew he hadnt been treating me well and was sorry but he was unhappy with the relationship and didn't want to mask his feelings. The thing that really gets me is that how we broke up and the evens that lead to this break up was the same thing that happened the first time. It makes me feel like an idiot so before he left my place i told him don't come to me in a month telling me you want to get back together (what happend the first time.)
I know that i was unhappy and upset being in the relationship. But i'm so angry and pissed off and even more upset now because i feel like my ex was too much of a coward to do anything and i ended up breaking things up for him. but now i just miss him and hate that he won't be a part of my life anymore and i have a hard time remembering that he had essentially checked out a month ago and wasn't in my life anyways. I broke it off so i wouldn't have to be upset by him anymore. And he is still the origin of my displeasure.
I know these things take time but I needed to vent

Your right it will take time but when you get to missing him please think about what are you missing
A man that is a coward
Doesnt treat you with love and affection
Shows no attention
Treats you like CRAP
Never gave you support or kindness
These are the things that all men and women DO NOT DESERVE to have when they are dating someone so just chalk this up as a lesson learn and when Mr Wimpy comes back to you tell him that you moved on to a better person and have no time for his games or the way he treats you
Good Luck 2 U