Dealing with bitterness.
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| Fri, 07-14-2006 - 6:42am |
This is an update from my other post i did awhile ago, now i am struggling with bitterness and depression..or maybe depression is too strong of a word so we will say, i miss the guy. The fact is now i am being bitter to all males, even my male friends! I had an awesome guy approach me and even though i am obviously not ready for a relationship, i took all my anger out on him and he realized it and got completely turned off, how do i deal with this? I'm trying to get in control of my feelings but now that i am missing him so much i am ready to turn around, after running what i thought was very far ahead, to say "can't we work this out?"
He said he was unhappy, and the truth is, so was i..i know he's not right for me, but i still love the guy and want to be with him.
What i am wondering now is what do i do when that moment of lonliness hits? I am tempted to talk to him because that always makes me feel better, at the moment, but after the conversation ends i am back to square 1. I am trying to make him "see what it's like without me" but i admit it, i am weak. I even started checking his webpage almost everyday to get the updates in his life, i know..sad right? I feel like it's almost an addiction now.
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-Arianna

I went back to see what your backstory was with your ex, and I'm obviously no expert, but I think a lot of the bitterness you feel towards guys in general stem from the fact that your ex has been stringing you along for the better part of a year, breaking up three times at least, being indecisive, having the relationship exactly the way he wants but not taking your feelings into consideration.