Dear Helen

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Registered: 09-06-2007
Dear Helen
Wed, 02-27-2008 - 9:05pm

Dear Helen,

I write this letter to you honey so that you know how I feel about you.

Ever since I returned back from the trip I made to visit you, I miss you more. We talk over one hour per day on the phone and usually its you calling, but yet you tend to be cold and most of my sms are unanswered.

I know my love that you are not opening easily to ANYONE and you've told me several times that you are not the person that "talks", but the person that "does things". But my love, being in a long distance relationship and far away from each other, the only thing that exists is the "talk" and not the "action". So even knowing that you care much, lack of expressiveness makes me think that you are bored.

Whenever I ask you how you feel about us, you tell me that you feel strong things, but that you are still confused due to the distance between us and the little time that we have spent close to each other.

We both know darling that you just finished your studies and want to spend one additional year at the place you spent your student life. We both know you will be back by summer.

Sometimes though you dissapoint me, as you believe that I am interested on you because we appart from each other. You believe that I will turn my back on you when you return, but thats not true. If I wanted to play on you games, I would quit my communication with you after the last visit I had.

When we talk on the phone, you don't usually talk that much because you are not opening to anyone much. That makes me talking to you mostly, but yet again we fail to have many common things to talk about. That way my love we many times say stupid or repeating things which will bore us soon enough. Other times we just stay on the phone mute, just because we don't want to hang up, but at the same time we don't know what to say to each other. Its so hard to wait all day so you talk with someone you are so interested at, and then have mostly nothing to say except of what you did at the office. I want to reach out, but day-by-day we have less to say since we don't see each other face-to-face.

I have told you darling that I will come and visit you again in three weeks and its really exciting that you want me so much to repeat my trip even for just three days.

Help me darling save routine out of our lives for the next six months that we will remain appart, because we both have admited that we are important to each other.