depression ensues

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Registered: 05-02-2005
depression ensues
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Mon, 05-02-2005 - 6:24pm

i just finally cut all ties with my boyfriend of 2 years. he doesn't know what he wants and is a total mess. i couldn't continue our in "limbo" relationship because it was killing me. this was 2 weeks ago and i am still a mess. i keep thinking about how happy we were, and i keep thinking that i must have done something to drive him away. if he loved me, said he was in love with me, why wouldn't he want to be with me? we are young, almost 23 and he has never had another girlfriend. is he scared?

i did everything for him. i was kind, loyal, devoted, and somehow it wasn't enough. i just keep thinking about him constantly. i want him back so badly. i want what we had back. i know it isn't going to happen right now and it scares me that it will never happen again.

i don't know how to heal and get over this.

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Registered: 03-22-2004
Mon, 05-02-2005 - 9:28pm
I can totally relate to where you are at. My fiancee of 3 years recently decided he didn't want to be in the relationship anymore. That was his only reason. He was in limbo, never telling me what he really wanted. I had gone out of town with my mom and he went out until 2:00am with his buddies and then decided the next day that we were done. I told him I wanted to work on the relationship but he said he didn't know what he wanted.
I don't know how to get over the depression either. I still hurt even though I was rejected. I am struggling everyday to just breathe and make it to work. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel but it sure hurts getting there.
Hang in there and know that you are not the only one going through this. If I can help somebody else get through it maybe it will start making sense to myself.