do i need a break up???

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Registered: 02-10-2006
do i need a break up???
Sat, 07-15-2006 - 7:20pm
i dont know if ineed to get over this guy im going mad or will be i have become or will depress over him, hes playin mind games with me i know this but the thing is i like him !!!!!!!!!!! im letting him get to me he acts like a boyfriend talks like a boyfriend but we are still friends and hes leaving the countary too im going mad the fear of losing him is making me mad even though i know he will be marrying some on e sle and is going to meet soe one in august still my heart doesnt understand anything! im going mad!
hes not special i have liked him even before he approached me and his little interest intsified the feeling im confused need to get over and stop him from playing mind games with me i know hes passing time with me and is player by histroy says i have alot of friends but no close. he fell in love wtih this girl 6yrs ago and still not over her
shared his feelings with me recently about her when i said u will fall in love again he said i dont expect to fall in love again or assume what ever that means he knows i like him alot thats why a girl like me after repeated no fianlly started calling him buying a cell so that he can call me but it wasnt made obvious just the underlying thing that im buying a cell for this reaon since he has requested so many times. i dont get him what he wants hes playing wiht my feelings . do i need to go away from him? or will that be a mistake or is it that this is a beginnig and may lead to some thing?
or do i need to change my attitude and revert to friendship in my mind and theres no need to get away completely? or am i misjudging him? or if i meet him in person things will change? or will he reject me since im not the total gorgous girl he ideals?
how can i stop thinking about him all the time even my friends are tired of advicing me now but why cant my heart listen to all the reasons? what is it actually???