Do you ever stop wondering...
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Do you ever stop wondering...
| Sun, 12-17-2006 - 11:22am |
If he will call???? It's been 20 days of no contact and every morning I wake up and think maybe he will call today. There's always a good excuse in my mind. For example, today my favorite football team is playing his favorite football team. What a great reason for him to call, right??? So I will spend my day in a panic attack checking my cell phone to see if he has called. And tonight when I go to bed and he hasn't called, I will be disappointed and sad. Does this ever stop??? When am I going to wake up and realize he doesn't want to talk to me which is why he isn't calling????

Broken,
My heart hurts for you because know exactly how that feels. Somethings my friends have said that have helped me:
Expect him NOT to call, and convince yourself that he isn't going to, because he isn't.
Change the ringtone on your phone.
Silence (or turn off) your phone when you find yourself obsessing. Another thing you can do it give your phone to a friend so you don't even have to think about it, but you know someone is keeping an eye on your calls.
Call a friend or call you mom.
I've also used a rather draconian approach to stop obsessive thoughts: snap a rubberband on your wrist as negative feedback when you start to feel crazy. That will serve to temporarily snap your mind awake as it will switch to focus on the physical pain rather than the mental pain. I know that sounds really unhealthy but, hey, it really does work. Better yet, take yourself out for a pedicure and leave your phone at home.
My question for you is: why do you want him to call? So you can relive all the pain? Don't do that to yourself. You're so much better than that.
Take care,
Stephanie
Thanks for your response.
I don't think I really do want to talk to him in all honesty. IF he called, I definitely would not answer and I'm not even sure I would call him back. I guess it's just the notion of knowing he was thinking about me and called me. How screwed up is that??? I'm going to try your rubberband idea. I like it!
I feel so stupid about feeling this way, because it has been almost two months for me!!! I keep wanting him to call, and I always wonder if today will be the day. It drives me crazy to wake up thinking of him, and I wish it would stop. Whenever a few hours go by, and I haven't thought of him, I feel such a sense of accomplishment! I am so pathetic, I even get all fluttery when I pass a truck similar to his. I feel like things are really out of control.
Why can't a smart person, which I consider myself, get the hell over a guy who so obviously doesn't want her??? At least I haven't gotten caught stalking him yet, so the fact that I am making a fool of myself over him is still a secret. I wish someone would say something that would snap me out of it. I just want my "spine" back. :)
I don't know if this will help, but he probably IS thinking about you. But thinking about you and missing you are different than deciding to resume the relationship. You seem to know that's not in your best interest, and I'm sure he does too. I broke up with my boyfriend a little while ago and I think about him, miss him, and want to call him every day. But I realize that's not fair to him. The only reason I would call (until a significant amount of time has passed) is to get back together. Otherwise, I think it's best for both of us to have time apart to completely heal.
You say you wouldn't actually want to talk to him; you just want to know he was thinking of you. Comfort yourself with the fact that he probably was reminded of you, but that him not calling was the best possible thing for you in the long run.