Do you think i'm stupid!
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| Fri, 08-27-2004 - 4:32pm |
its been a tough 2 weeks. i cant stop thinking about what he did to me. i'm constantly crying. i've isolated myself from my mom, best friend, and other males. why would someone throw away 5 years for a cheap fling (so he says). i'm anry, hurt and sad all in one. it pains me to hear his voice or see his face, but in the same breathe i miss him.
he told me yesterday that he took his pic off the internet in hopes that i'll be happy to hear the news. i was happy to hear that, it meant that he was headed in the right direction (just didnt verbally tell him that). this morning, i called him to say good morning. while we were talking i noticed that his tone had changed, from sounding sympathetic to i dont care and maybe its for the best that we break up. i asked him where all of this was coming, considering on mon. you didn't even want to discuss it. he told me that was trying to real hard to make things right and i was very cold, distant and wasn't very receptive to him. i told him that i was still hurt about what had happend and he asked how long was i going to drag this on? i told as long as it took. he then told me, that he didn't see a point in trying to reconcile w/me if there still wasn't going to be any trust.
i called a few hours later to say that i wanted to talk and that i would meet him at his house; he told he'd get back to me b/c he might be going out later.
what do you all think, is it time to reconcile? i know its possible to forgive but can you forget? will my heart ever feel the same way for him? will i ever be able to believe in him? should i let this relationship go? if so, how should i go about doing that?

Listen, I think he is trying to play games with you. He tells you he took his pic off the internet and then when you call him to say hello he had the 'I don't care' attitude. I firmly believe that he thinks that he is now going to play hard to get with you. He said that he didn't see a point in trying to reconcile with you if there still wasn't going to be any trust. What he fails to understand is that trust is earned not freely given and he has clearly betrayed the trust. He's just trying to turn the tables on you so if he does something like this again you will remember how he was angry at you instead and hopefully you won't confront him on it. My ex used to try that stunt with me. If I were you I would not attempt to contact him again, in any way because he is expecting you to come crawling back to him and because some people are so darn pompous, will probably expect you to apologize to HIM for upsetting him by calling him on it. Kick him to the curb. I know easier said than done but I finally had to do that with my ex because he tried that crap over and over and I was the one that always felt hurt and guilty at the same time, over and over again. To answer you question, I don't think you are stupid, you're human, but you need to nip it in the bud now. Good luck. Lucy
Good luck!