Doesn't seem to get better..
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Doesn't seem to get better..
| Sun, 05-28-2006 - 1:46am |
Its been almost 7 weeks since my breakup. the first two weeks I was in shock then the pain came, I felt physical pain like I never have. I am 45 years old and until this age I never had my heartbroken before, there were many breakups but I guess I was ready for those realtionships to end but this time it came so suddenly from left field I was blown away. After the fourth week with help of my friends I realized that he wasn't the best man for me etc..I realize in my logical brain he wasn't the one yetevery morning I wake up missing him, everything I see, everywhere I go I think ofhim. He has moved on and probablly doesn't even think twice now, how can someone be so loving one day can just move on so quickly?I wish I can hate him but I can't.What can I do to move on? and not feel the pain? I am so tired of feeling sad.

Oh girl, I am so very sorry.
Sandra,
thank-you for your insightful advice. I am blessed with friends that have done all those things for me, I wouldn't of gotten thru the first few weeks without them, but I think even my friends are getting a little tired of me still in the bad place.
People invite me to partys but I feel so alone among all the married couples. I go out on a girls weekend and come home even more depressed, I feel like I don't want to leave my house.
I guess what set me off this weekend was the other night I had couple glasses of wine and did the stupid thing of "drink and email" I asked him to have a drink with me on friday night, he replyed one line back saying, he already have plans for the weekend.than it was all down hill from there and I thought for awhile there I was doing fairly well.
My X husband had a hand in this break-up so I am so angry with him, I can't even speak to him (we share custody of our kids)
today though I am going to try being sad instead of trying to feel better..and hope I will start to feel better soon.