Dont know what to do....
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| Thu, 12-07-2006 - 2:06pm |
i am 23 and was in a 8yr realationship with who i thought was the love of my life. He never cheated on me (or at least i dont know about it) and he didnt leave me (i dont think for someone else) i think he was just scared. We had planned our life together and even though the last couple of months we argued constantly i didnt think he would have ended it telling me he didnt know what he wanted. This was a couple of weeks ago and i cant seem to think i have a life after this. He was all i knew and can not picture myself with anyone else. He was my love and just left me. Talk about feeling rejected, i am just wondering how will i ever get through this. I cant see life without him and i keep blaming myself for all the wrong in our relationship. How do you move on and continue life when i feel it has been taken from me. The holidays are coming and i have two weeks before i receive my bachelors degree and i dont even think all this matters to me. I want him back so bad but i cant get hurt by someone who is not sure what he wants. Everyone tells me yes i will find someone else and maybe we just werent meant to be but HOW are we suppose to move on when you plan your whole future with this person?
All i think about are the good times all the stuff i miss about him and only if i had another chance i would make it perfect. I really jst want to make this horrible everlasting pain of my life is over just go away.
I dread the day he is with someone else i will be devastated and think i will die. Although, i feel like my insides have already died.
I was very close to his family and cant imagine not being around them anymore. I feel like i will never love again and get that happy loving marriage i have always dreamed about.
I just want my pain and these awful thoughts to go away. Honestly this truly sucks.
How to i stop feeling all this hurt and pick up the pieces to move on?

I think in this case you are going to have to embrace the hurt for awhile. The only thing that has ever worked for me in these situations is allowing time to heal the wound. This is also a time to focus on what you want for yourself not as part of a couple but just for you. If this guy does not want to be with you right now it means that he is not the right guy for you now. From what I gather, you have really only known him, what if there is a great amazing guy out there that wold be even better for you? If you cling onto this guy, you may never find out. Enjoy your new found freedom as best you can and find out what is really right for you.
Good luck!
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