dying inside
Find a Conversation
dying inside
| Thu, 04-21-2005 - 3:15pm |
I am not doing well. I can't stop thinking about my ex. I try to be angry that he broke off our 4 years to be with somone else but I just can't. I am so hurt I feel it deep down in the pit of my stomach. It has been three weeks I haven't heard a word from him and I haven't called him. I keep hoping he will call me and tell me he misses me but nothing. That is so hard. I think I really just want the phone call to know that he didn't just forget about me, to know that maybe he thinks about me. But in realty I know he probably doesn't because he has her to distract him. He had totally moved on and it just kills me inside. How does someone just walk away and move on with their life without second thought. We had all these future plans, we lived together, did everything together and my whole life has been uprooted. I don't even have the energy to try and make myself feel better, to pick myself off the floor and move on. The fact that he allowed this person to come in between us just bothers the hell out of me, the fact that he did this period just hurts so bad. I just wish he could have been honest with me, if he wasn't happy he should of just told me that when he began feeling unhappy rather than wait around until someone came along and then break up with me. I just want him to realize what a mistake he has made and my fear is that he will never think that. I know I shouldn't concern myself with that but I do for some reason. I so badly want to call him and confront him with all this but it takes everything I have not to. I'm sure I wouldn't get the response I want anyways. I want the response of "I'm so sorry and I'm so stupid I love you and you are the best thing that ever happened to me" I know it's dumb to feel this way I should be angry.

I feel exactly like you, i just want him to call me!!! It has been almost 2 weeks since we broke up and i havent heard about him at all. Sometimes i sit and wish he would call me and tell me that he loves me and that he still wants to be with me. My friends have really helped me with this. It hurts me alot but then i think that everything happens for a reason. Maybe we werent meant to be and soon i will meet the guy of my dreams. I try to think that but it is very hard. I miss him so MUCHHHHHHHHHH and it kills me inside to think that im never gonna be with him again. I know that u can get through this and my best wishes are for you. Dont let yourself down!! Many of us are passingg through the same thing and we are here for each other. TAKE CARE.