Extremely painful night
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Extremely painful night
| Sat, 02-23-2008 - 12:02am |
Hi everyone, just needed to share. It's been an awful evening. Today is day 16 of NC (round two) and I am sick as well (really bad cold, headache, generally feeling crappy). Anyway, today I took the little girl I nanny swimming which should have been fun, but unfortunately it is the same pool complex where the ex and I took his daughter swimming. I was okay while I was there but then completely lost it driving home from work and proceeded to eat a bunch of cookies (sigh..emotional eating) which of course felt good for about 2 seconds and now I feel even worse.
I just feel crazy. Like my emotions are never going to stabilize. I know this isn't true and that I just need to stick to NC and it will get better. Here is to day 17.

Just want to give you a cyber hug and say hang in there.
Sheri
That's really brave of you to be able to go to the pool complex.
Thanks ladies. :)
It's odd, but sometimes I need a reminder that I AM healing. Sometimes it doesn't feel like it.
I am proud that I didn't break down and contact him last night. Soon it will be 20 days!
-Rachel
you can do it. it takes courage to be able to go to the pool. baby steps each day. i am on day 6 of nc and it's painful having to drive near my work as he lives right near there.
every night is tough- you want to call, but think of it this way, you don't want to give him the satisfaction.
keep up the awesome job.
hugs!