far away and heart broken
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| Tue, 11-28-2006 - 11:17pm |
me and my boyfriend dated for a year and a half. he was my best friend and our relationship could not have been more perfect. some of my happiest times were spent with him. a couple months ago i left for school 8 hours away. i knew it would be tough but i was determined to do anything i could to make our relationship last. the past couple months have been tough for both of us. our relationship has had its ups and downs but i never doubted that we would pick up right where we left off when i came home for the holidays.
but when i went home for thanksgiving things just didn't feel the same. it was just really weird. here was this guy that was supposed to be my everything and in reality being with him was almost like being with a stranger. most of the week was great but there were those parts that just kept nagging me where i felt like my feelings werent as strong. its not as if i had any desire to be with anyone else or had my eyes on anyone else. i dont know if anyone here has been in a long distance relationship and has experienced this feeling before.
anyways at the end of my thanksgiving break we decided it wasn't working anymore and broke up. neither of us are happy about it, but we kind of feel it may be for the best. the worst part is that he's never done anything wrong and our relationship didn't end on bad terms so i still want to be friends. and of course i keep thinking about getting back together because maybe these things are in my head and given time things will get back to the way they used to be. i miss him like crazy.
i know i'm really young and college is all about meeting people and i should give other guys the chance but at the same time i just feel like im not ready for that yet and the good times with my bf aren't over yet. i dont want to do something i'm going to regret.
please share any of your experiences in situations like this or any advice you might have. thanks so much!
jaimie

Long distant relationships aren't easy. Did you post on the Long Distant relationship support board here at iVillage? Maybe someone has been though something similar and could give you some advice.
Good luck to you.
Carrie