feel really down today

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Registered: 08-10-2007
feel really down today
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Tue, 08-14-2007 - 4:56am
im feeling really down today. i cant do this n\c rule. im sat at work and all i am doing is reading the message board. it just reassures me that there is other people going throught this too. i feel so worthless, and even thought i am seeing my friends as much as i can it still feels like i have literally been punched in the stomach. i dont think i can do this...i wish i could just wake up and i will b over him. to make matters worse, my sisters byfriend txt me a picture yesterday of some girl. Supposingly he was really cosy with her, and it looked like they had known each other a while. we have only been broke up a blimin week...how can he be over it so quickly??? i feel i am a nice person, and he tells me that. But at this time i feel like a fool, i feel ugly, i feel worthless and i feel like just running away!!! Please help me...xxx


Edited 8/14/2007 6:20 am ET by wisha_20
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Registered: 07-30-2007
Tue, 08-14-2007 - 10:20am

Hi Wisha,
I know how you feel and I'm sorry you are having to go through this. I'm on week three and feeling a little bit better. The first week I swear I stopped breathing. I had to leave my desk several times a day b/c I would just start crying. It's the worst pain in the world but I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You have to work through this pain and feel it before you can start moving on. I'm still sad and I never thought I could miss someone the way I miss him. I want to call him everyday but I cant. Keeping the NC is very very important.
Do not feel like you are worthless or ugly because you are not! Do not give him that much power to make you feel that way about yourself. Keep your head up and try to stay positive. This too shall pass!

Write me anytime.

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Registered: 08-14-2007
Tue, 08-14-2007 - 11:31am

HELLO LIL ONE

I FEEL YOU ON HOW YOU ARE FEELING IT'S BEEN A MONTH FOR ME AND I UNDERSTAND THOSE FEELINGS YOU ARE HAVING. I JUST STARTED HAVING BETTER DAYS I WENT THRU THE WHOLE ANGRY ONE DAY AND I MISS HIM THE NEXT DAY! I KNEW HE REALLY WASN'T FOR ME BUT I LOVED HIM AND WAS WILLING TO TAKE A CHANCE FOR SOMETHING NEW IN MY LIFE BUT I GUESS GOD KNOW BEST. HE PUTS AND TAKES OUT OF YOUR LIFE WHAT YOU NEED AT THAT TIME ALTHOUGH IM HURTING I SEE IT IS FOR THE BEST WE AREN'T TOGETHER. HE IS BACK WITH HIS EX-GIRLFRIEND AND I FEEL HURT SHE WAS INCARCERATED FOR 4 MOS BUT THEY BROKE UP BEFORE SHE WENT IN AND I TOOK CARE OF HIM FOR 5 MOS TRYING DESPRITELY TO HELP HIM GET HIMSELF TOGETHER AND WHEN SHE GOT OUT HE WENT BACK TO HER SO I FELT USED AND AND BETRAYED AND I RELIVE IT SOMETIMES BUT I DON'T SIT AROUND LIKE I DID THE FIRST 3 WEEKS AND WORRY LIKE I DID I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER GET TO SLEEP AGAIN TO THINK AGAIN OR FOR THE MOST OF IT LIVE AGAIN IT'S HARD BUT I WENT ON AND YOU CAN TO IF YOU BELIEVE AND HAVE FAITH OUR FATHER WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU. I FEEL SORRY FOR MY EX BECAUSE IM A GOOD WOMAN AND HE WILL NEVER GET TO FIND THAT OUT I DON'T THINK WE COULD OR WILL EVER BE FRIENDS AGAIN AND HE WAS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS FIRST IT'S SAD BUT THAT'S LIFE! I WISH HIM WELL AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HIM BUT I WILL NEVER SHOW HIM AGAIN! IT HURTS TO EVEN SAY THIS TO YOU I'M GETTING EMOTIONAL BUT I FEEL THIS WAY FOR A REASON!

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Registered: 07-14-2007
Tue, 08-14-2007 - 9:41pm

It seems like the end will never come sometimes, doesn't it? I remember reading this board a month back and thinking "when will I ever get to that point, dear god this black hole of my life is over.." But you WILL get there. Just hang on.

And tell your sister's boyfriend to please not send you anything related to your ex. This whole cycle seems to be triggered by that one stupid text. When you're down and bleeding, the last thing you need is for someone else to come cut you another hole.

cheers
Susanna

- There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your