feeling like a bad person

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Registered: 10-24-2007
feeling like a bad person
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Fri, 11-23-2007 - 3:58am

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Registered: 11-17-2007
Fri, 11-23-2007 - 3:10pm

Why did you stay/or continue

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Registered: 02-05-2007
Fri, 11-23-2007 - 3:26pm

Welcome to the board sophieness,


As long as you are in contact with him, the more your guilt will feed itself.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-24-2007
Fri, 11-23-2007 - 3:53pm

"Why did you stay/or continue

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-17-2007
Fri, 11-23-2007 - 9:02pm

Hi Sophiness,


I must've misinterpreted your original post.

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Registered: 10-24-2007
Sat, 11-24-2007 - 2:44am

thank you! *hugs* no I could never cheat on anyone it is not in me. but I am not a perfect partner and I feel terrible all the same...sometimes having a change of heart does feel like a crime against someone. especially when you wish you were the friend who could take them out and cheer them up instead of the person who did it. BUT! today was a little bit better than yesterday, and tomorrow will be a little bit better than today. my mind is settling down a bit. it is a horror when you held someone in your arms and told them you loved them to be the person who turns their back on a relationship. I was always trying to cheer him up...I have seen him through three places of residence and he is quitting a job for the second time in less than six months...it feels awful but I just want someone who has found themselves and found their place in life. I know he will be one of the great loves of my life. I wish so bad to be able to help him! through everything! but I can only take care of myself and I want someone who can do the same and come home from work satisfied with their day...satisfied with themselves. I have gone through depression in my life and I think two people with that tendency would have a very hard time of it in the long run. but I think we also had a soul connection that is very rare. so now that I have explained myself a little bit maybe you see part of the reason why I love him so much, and even though he was so wonderful to me- a prince of a man really- I worry too much about our future to continue.


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Registered: 03-08-2007
Tue, 11-27-2007 - 9:06am

Thanks for your post.