feeling better,

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Registered: 01-29-2005
feeling better,
Fri, 07-01-2005 - 10:33am

you guys gave me a reality check..i decided to get some closure and move on.......and I feel better......so i tried to call him twice on Tuesday and Wednesday.....sent him a text, he didnt answer the phone or respond to my text so I sent him a text last night saying that I wasnt gonna ask of him what he wasnt willing to freely give, thanks for making me feel special and beautiful when you did and that I was going to look at this as a learning experience and that I wasnt bitter, that I've grown and I still am optimistic about life and love and that I am open to being with someone again. I am sure now that he is avoidng me,he didnt answer anything, i think its immature and stupid the way he is behaving but whatever, dont know why he is acting like this/ my time is to precious to try to figure him out, he aint worth it!but I've decided to fully accept it, I tried to salvage some closure but I didnt........i'm still me and I will live my life fully, with or without him or any guy! I feel a twinge of sadness but I know that I have made it a month....I'm doing well in my life and that I deserve a guy who will treat me well......for now, I will focus on myself and I will continue to be the wonderful woman I am.

previous post:
We were friends for 3 months, then we wnet out for a month. Was great..we messed around but didnt have sex.It was really great though, he was so sweet and kind and cute and smart! Ok, its been 27 days and he hasnt called me. I have heard nothing from him. No emal, no text no phone call. All we had was each other cell numbers. He had just graduated nursing school (I'm a senior in it now) and he had bills galore.........one of which was his phone bill (around 300 dollars) and he told me shortly before I last heard from him that it was gonna get cut off cuz he couldnt pay his bill til he started working ( which would be for three weeks at the time) but he has been working for about 2 or 3 weeks now maybe 4, and he hasnt called. I tried to call his phone and its still off plus a girl I know who works with him says it is..........he always asks to borrow hers. I feel like if he wanted to call em he wouldve, one way or another but he did. I'm confused and hurt........he wasnt seeing anyone else at the time, neither was I. I am trying to move forward and stay busy but I liked him alot. I'm so hurt..but I have to accept things. My question is why did he hurt me like this? I'm the smartest in my class, I'm pretty, and sweet, the whole girl next door things............we had good chemistry and all..........he was so sweet and we were taking it slow.........we agreed we were more than friends but we wanted to take it slow. My girlfriends assure me it wasnt my fault that he dissapeared and that any guy would be lucky to have me........I feel like crap. I just wish he would be honest with me.........if he met someone else or whatever but not calling me is hurtful and immature.Please help! I am still at the top of my class and taking care of my appearance and being active with my friends..........and all but I'm hurt. But I'm being strong............please help me! Why did he do this? We were doing so well.......he was driving an hour to see me and everythinge...........we were doing so well.