feeling distraught and guilty

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Registered: 03-13-2006
feeling distraught and guilty
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Mon, 03-13-2006 - 9:22pm
Hi, I'm new to these boards. I've had a long term-relationship that consisted of lots of fights, and short breakups ( usually lasting 2 days). Everytime we break up it hurts so bad we get back together right away. I always say that I have to do it one time for good. Sometimes though, things are great and I can't live without him. Well, he has been getting on my nerves lately. Mostly because of his drinking. He embarrassed me while we were out and I told him it was over. I told him to leave. He proceeded to drink more and leave. The next day he didn't remember anything and felt like he had been beat up. We don't know where he was or what happened. The last 2 days he has switched from saying he will miss me to being mean. Today I discovered he went to the emergency room. (He thought he had a concussion from possibly being beaten up) All I have done is cry. It physically hurts so bad and I just keep thinking of the good things we had. I make excuses for the problems and let them go. I also feel so guilty that I told him to leave and this happened. Any advice? I hope everyone on these boards doesn't just tell people what they want to hear. Thanks! I am desperate for some help.

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Registered: 03-13-2006
Thu, 03-16-2006 - 10:44pm
You're right, shadow, he has calmed down a bit and is now acting better towards me. Not threatening me anymore with phone calls. I think he really needs someone to talk to. He tells me how much he loves me and how he wants me to be happy. I feel so bad for him because he is in such bad physical shape. I feel he loves me even though I'm such a nut-case, and he knows my faults. You're right about it going back to the same old thing though.

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