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| Mon, 12-20-2004 - 10:35pm |
Please bare with me I'll be short. Story goes as such...BF of last year cheated on me in Aug. and I found out by looking at his video camera in his car saw him and her ya know....YES....Then we worked things out and all was ok until last week when he took a trip to texas....swore he wouldn't but did it again with some girl he had met online. I knew and contacted her posing as him and sure enough she fell hook line and sinker and said how much she enjoyed him spending the night and making love to her in the morning. I of course confront him and the worst part is he blames me for being nosy and sneaking behind his back. I am the one in trouble here in his eyes. Tell me how ridiculous this is and how I really need to walk away from this guy. I do love him dearly Am I wrong for snooping and finding out what my gut told me he did? I actually apologized for finding out. I need help huh? Need friends who know and went through this. Why can't I let him go? Why do I keep setting myself up for more heartbreaks? Help please.....
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| Tue, 12-21-2004 - 10:37am |
"Women in pain don't need any 12 step programs, they only need 2 steps...GET UP and GET OUT!" Sorry for your pain, but do you think it's going to get better staying with your lying, cheating, deceiving jerk of a boyfriend? You're unwittingly teaching him that you have such low expectations and standards for a relationship that you'll tolerate his gross injustices as long as it means you don't have to brave being alone. You're stronger and better than that! And DON'T feel guilty for your excellent detective work...CONGRATS on being brave enough to seek and confront the truth even though you knew it would be painful. Think of all the women who live for years in adulterous relationships because they hide their head in the sand and won't examine their mate's behavior...that's not for you! Homework: Read "He's Scared, She's Scared," "He's Just Not That Into You" and "Why Men Love Bitches". You can order them at the library and get them for free or head to the bookstore. In the meantime, Absolutely NO CONTACT. Spend some time on your own interests and goals (remember? the ones you put on the back burner when you met HIM? We all do it). Expect a lot of crying for the next few weeks and even months, but it DOES get better and you'll emerge on the other side a stronger and wiser person. I'm at nearly five months now after catching my live-in boyfriend of two years cheating...still cry now and then, but finally regaining my self-respect and picking up where I left off. You can do it too...Good Luck!
| Tue, 12-21-2004 - 10:21pm |
Thank you for responding...and the reading material...The more he calls and the more I think about how he has no remorse for what he did just makes me sick. To think I am a beautiful intelligent woman who deserves an honest man and not a cheat who in turn blames me for snooping. He hates the fact that I 'm not stupid like the rest or believe his lies. I see right through him. I have enough problems in life for him not to be adding to them. I need an honest person who is sure of himself and what he wants and can admit to his mistakes. I do get aweful nice presents when he cheats though LOL. going out tomorrow with gf's to enjoy life for once... Thanks again goldeneyedgirl
