Feeling Low

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Registered: 08-14-2007
Feeling Low
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Tue, 08-28-2007 - 10:22am

So I have written in before. My ex bf and i broke up earlier this summer mostly because our relationship fell apart after he was diagnosed with cancer.

He has asked me not to call him and I have honored his request for the most part. I saw him in a coffee shop this weekend with a coworker of his and my heart just sank. I ducked out so they wouldnt see me because I didn't know what to do. Ever since I saw them I feel like we broke up all over again. I get super anxious and sad every time I think about it. I know they could be just friends, but that even hurts me, that I can't be the one to listen to him and console him while he goes through this really horrible time. I just can't shake the image out of my head of how they looked happy together and it makes me think of how i realized i could not make him happy anymore because i represented a failed relationship to him.

Sometimes I really just want to call him up and ask him if he is dating her, but I know that it's none of my business.

I want to deal with this as best I can but now I feel like all of this drama is getting in the way of my work and my friendships. I have tried to follow all of the advice out there, getting rid of his stuff, trying to only think about the break up for 10 min a day, excersising, seeing a therapist, but right now I am exausted from doing all of this stuff. To top it off this month is make or break time at work so I can't really afford to have a professional crisis.

I guess I am asking for words of wisdom or support.

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Registered: 02-05-2007
In reply to: coolia2007
Tue, 08-28-2007 - 9:00pm

Hi coolia,


Sorry you are down.