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feeling nothing......
| Tue, 06-01-2004 - 2:32pm |
It's 6 days since the love of my life broke up wih me and I feel nothing. I mean I literally feel nothing..I can't cry, I can't get angry, I can't shout..scream..wail..I mean nothing. Is this normal?..I mean I still visualise him picking up the phone and telling me what a HUGE mistake he's made and that he still loves me...but I know it will never happen and I do still think about him..but more of in the way of Oh well it's his loss not mine....is this healthy after such a short time? I'm feeling confused as to where I'm at...does this mean that I didn't love him as much as I did..am i over it already? If it does, God I really don't know what love is all about..please help feeling very very confused.

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To feel nothing would be a bit of a blessing. I have the opposite problem. I have so many emotions swirling around I don't know what to do. I range from complete and utter despair to being somewhat ok to dazed & confused. I cry myself to sleep, while driving home at night, at work, in pizzarias, everywhere. I can't breathe, my heart is shatttered and I am in pain. I just hope that I don't look like the walking dead because I sure feel like that. And I can't get angry, I want to be angry, I just can't. Anger is an easy emotion to deal with. I can be angry and say he's a dirtbag and I am much better off without him but I just can't seem to get angry. So here I sit waiting for that anger...
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