Feeling really anxious

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Registered: 02-20-2004
Feeling really anxious
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Thu, 06-29-2006 - 11:55am

Ok, I just have to vent. My ex who I broke up with 2 weeks ago came home from his fishing trip to Canada last night.

Last week when he and I talked about our breakup and decided that he needed to go to a counselor on his own to figure things out before thinking about getting back togehter I told him that if he wanted to stay broken up we need to act like we are broken up and that I would not be contacting him. I left the ball in his court and said that it was up to him. As much as it killed me to say that, I still want to talk to him and see him because I still feel like there is a chance that we will be back together. He told me that we would talk soon, and he said that he would call me when he got back.

So, today is the day. He is supposed to call me tonight. Last week I felt good about it, but now I'm feeling really anxious. Part of me thinks that maybe I shouldn't talk to him at all when he calls even though I really want to. I'm not sure why, because I do want to be back togehter with him, yet deep down I feel really nervous about this. I keep checking my email to see if he has written me and the day is dragging. Its killing me to not pick up the phone and call him at work or email him. I'm not going to do it, but I can't seem to stop thinking about it. It was so much easier when I knew he was on vacation and I couldn't contact him. I'm also worried that if I don't answer tonight when he calls that I would make him think that I don't want to be with him anymore. Ughh... this is so hard.

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Registered: 05-08-2006
Thu, 06-29-2006 - 12:15pm

I know exactly how you feel. Trust me I do. I went through 4 weeks of no contact from my ex, until one day I got this gut-feeling that I should call, so I did (I always listen to my intuition).

There is nothing you can do. If he does call and you feel like you want to talk to him then answer. If he doesn't call don't stress about it. If you are meant to be with him you will be.

I'm going to share something with you that someone on these boards told me: Moving on doesn't mean that you don't love him, it doesn't mean that you might not get back together one day, it just means that you are moving on. You can't waste your life waiting around for a guy who didn't know what he wanted.

Take that to heart. It has helped me alot and I am moving on.

~Amber~