good days, bad days... why?
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good days, bad days... why?
| Tue, 06-14-2005 - 7:12pm |
This seems like such a trivial question, and it actually is in comparison to many other messages on this board... the only guy I've ever been in love with broke up with me several weeks ago, but in a very vague/standoffish/"i'll just back out slowly because I dont have the courage to do this" way. I've fallen out of love with him, although I still truly care about him and would help him in any way I could. My question (and maybe it's supposed to stay a mystery) is why (even after no real contact in weeks) do I wake up some mornings feeling like the world is my own and he's the last thing I need, and then other days I wake up and feel as though I've lost the only thing I ever wanted? Two days ago, a close friend noticed that I was being quiet and said "I'm here, you know" and I lost it. I also cried randomly (ex: driving to work) for the next two days, just once a day and it lasts a few minutes, then I'm fine. Every time I get emotional, it hits me so hard how much I miss him and how I truly thought we were going to be together forever. Then other days, I'm great! Life feels perfect and better off without him. Today is one of those days, but I'm not looking forward to the next time I'm simply drifting off to sleep and he suddendly invades my mind and I lose it. How long will this go on?! Has anyone been in this position??

But what i have noticed is that when i do see him i realise all the reasons why i shouldnt be with him and its just crap so what i dont understand is why i get crazy to see him in the first place???
Also it does start to get a bit boring when you cry and feel like S**t and there comes a point when you just cant cry anymore and say to yourself what am i doing? which is what i've realised now......its getting ridiculous and there comes a point when you just have to move on cos theres just nothing else you can do.F*** them their the ones that have lost out.Next.................lol!Goodluck.