Grace

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Registered: 03-19-2005
Grace
Thu, 06-29-2006 - 4:22am

Recently someone spoke to me and used the word "grace". It was a brief moment... a sentence in a long discussion. The moment came and went.. like a breeze. The word stuck with me.

So on my mind the last few days has been what "is" grace. How does it feel to act gracefully in a situation... and above that how do you have grace in a painful situation. With all of these questions.. and after thinking about it a few days I decided to look up the word. Find out what Webster would give for a definition. Sorting through the numerous possibilities... I came across what I thought to be the one to sum it up the best.

grace: disposition to or an act or instance of kindness, courtesy, or clemency

So with this knowledge I am sitting here thinking. There have been so many situations in my life that I have lacked grace. That instead of kindness... I have chosen the road of anger and hurt. That instead of courtesy.. I have been inconsiderate to others feelings and beliefs. That instead of clemency... I have made ones in my life pay at the highest level for the wrongs they have done.

I wonder how experiences in my life... a few of those weighing heavily on my mind right now... would have changed if I had carried myself in a graceful manner. Would the outcomes have changed? Would there not be such a heaviness on my heart when I think about those times?

Right now I am faced with the possibility of having to walk away from someone I love dearly and with all my heart. If I have to face forward... and take those steps away from him... I hope I can walk away gracefully. So maybe just maybe... the last thing he'll remember is my smile.. the smile for the love and good times shared.