Gut Instinct

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Registered: 08-09-2003
Gut Instinct
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Wed, 09-22-2004 - 11:49am
i recently ended things with the man i thought i was going to marry (and still do). he has never ever had the chance to be single. he met me right after getting out of a loveless 9 year relationship. we didn't jump into anything - we were best friends first and our beautiful love grew out of that. even our break up conversation was filled with love, hugs, and kisses. it is very, very hard for me to let him go but as strange as it sounds i understand his need to explore the world and all it has to offer him. i just wish that he missed me as much as i miss him, my heart is broken even though i know it was not a mistake to end it.

the single life and him being on his own, is going to teach him things that he can't learn about while being with me and these are absolutley things that he needs to learn.

i also get the feeling that he is going to get bored of being on his own and realize what an amazing thing we had together and i am praying to God and the powers of the Universe that he decides to try to come back to me for the relationship we are meant to have.

i would like to ask the people who take the time to read this message to please think very positive, healthy, healing thoughts for the both of us as i truly believe we are soul mates and meant to be together forever after this hopefully short respice.

however every day that goes by, i do feel him slipping further and further away from me so i need to draw strength from somewhere.

please pray and send out positive thoughts that we get back together sooner rather than later but later rather than never. please pray and have positive thoughts that he comes back to me solely, honestly and ready for the committed, love-filled relationship we are destined for.

thank you for all your kind thoughts and words. they are the strength and honesty i so need right now.

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Registered: 01-30-2004
In reply to: peppa616
Wed, 09-22-2004 - 10:36pm
Welcome to the board!! I'm sorry you're going through all this right now....I know it must be tough. I know you're thinking and hoping he'll come back and that would be great because I know that's what you want....but you also need to be prepared for if he doesn't. I know that's a tough pill to swallow but I just want to make sure you're not putting your life on hold for him while he's going out and living it up without you. Just try and stay busy...hang out with friends, go shopping, take up a new hobby, exercise....whatever you can to stay busy. Good luck and keep us posted. Feel free to post anytime you need to!!!
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