gutted!! and heart broken

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Registered: 04-17-2003
gutted!! and heart broken
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Fri, 09-09-2005 - 2:49pm
hi everyone, i cant stop thinking about my ex so i thought id come here for a chat.
we split up 2 weeks ago after being together for 2 years, im so gutted!
anyway untill last night i hadnt heard from him and was praying that he would txt me to say sorry and tell me how upset he is, i thought knowing he was hurting would make me feel better, well he did txt me saying he was sorry and that his heart was breaking and guess what i feel worse! i love him more than anything and hate to think of him hurting, does anyone ever feel that the only person you want to give you a cuddle and meke you feel better is the person who caused the pain in the first place?? anyway because of the reason we broke up i could never be with him again but my heart still needs him so much!
im sure im not talking any sense but its helping me anyway so thankyou for listening.
ive been told a million times, time will heal, plenty more fish in the sea, you can do better etc but its just not helping, i have a wonderfull family who are supporting me but and great friends but none of them take the place of my ex.
the funny thing is ive had my heart broken b4 and got over it so i know i will again but at this mo im not ready to get over him, im missing him in my life!
im sorry for all my twisting i just needed to tell someone. if anyone has any ideas on how to cheer up id love to hear them.
thanks again love sweetie.x
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Registered: 01-30-2004
Sat, 09-10-2005 - 12:31am
I'm sorry to hear about your break-up...I know how devastating it can be.
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Registered: 04-17-2003
Sat, 09-10-2005 - 3:43am
hi thanks for the reply, you sound exactly like you know how im feeling, this is just going to be a short message as im getting ready for my friends wedding, im dreding it but it will keep me busy! i will keep you posted for as long as your willing to listen. have a nice day sweetie.xx
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Registered: 09-14-2005
Wed, 09-14-2005 - 8:07pm

Sweetie2020,
I know exactly how you feel. When I was crying with my b/f he wanted to hold me and I wanted him to but then I wanted him to push him away. I know I should never talk to him again but then I wonder like you, why hasn't he called to say sorry at least. It is breaking my heart and the worse part is, I work right down the street from where he lives and this is not as easy as I would have thought. On the other hand like you I have been heart broken b4 and it took me 2 years to get over that and afterwards I said I will never be like that again. I don't feel as bad as I did with that guy but it still hurts and I want things to go back to the way they were. I hope we bring you some comfort but I know sometimes thats not enough. Well anyway I'm here broken hearted too.

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