have to deal w/ seeing him EVERYDAY
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| Wed, 01-17-2007 - 6:58pm |
so it's been almost two months (if oyu want the back story, here it is http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=iv-rlbreaking&msg=21815.1&ctx=128!) i thought i would begin to think of him less and less, but i still have to see him EVERY day. we attend the same school, and it's really really hard. he broke it off, so naturally he is moved on and doing really well. he flirts with everybody around me, so i have to deal with that. and the new girl he's interested in flirts back and i think they will probubely start "hooking up" soon. i'm devestated and have been for two months now.
furthermore, he went through weird stages with me. well, he ended it. and after that he was indifferent towards me if we ever ran into eachother (not nice,not mean)...then he transitioned to being SO SO SO mean if we ever passed eachother in the halls or if anyone ever mentioned my name. and recently he's begun being really indifferent indifferent again. he never contacts me or whatever, and he's always so happy. he has hooked up with many people since we ended...and a couple of nights ago i was trapped at the same party as him and he walked up stiars with some girl. he is compltetely over me and 100% moved on (or else it seems that way). HOW DO I DEAL WITH SEEING HIM EVERY DAY? i walk around corners hoping that he wont be standing there with his arm around some girl, but alot of the time he is (he ignores me and continues whatever he's doing).
sorry this is so long again...i just honestly am confused about how a HUMAN BEING can just end it with someone and completely move on so quickly. is he human!? how does he not have emotions like us girls!? we were not only firends but also going out for almost a year! i know its not THAT long but it was a year or my life, and i jsut ownder how a person can forget aobut htat so quickly. is it really that easy to throw a person out of your life? if so, it was easy for him, adn its not that easy for me...and i jsut ownder WHY i still think of him. its been two months. he told m he didnt have FEELINGS FOR ME ANYMORE. how have a not found a way to move on!? whenever him and i make eye contact, my heart away starts beating so fast (in a bad way) and he just looks at me for a second and looks away. he doesnt care at all. PLEASE HELP ME DEAL WTTH THIS!
I THOUGHT AFTER TWO MONTHS I WOULD FEEL BETTER, BUT I STILL CONSTANTLY ANALYZE THE RELATIIONSHIPS END, AND I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT HIM. I JUST WANT TO BE AS INDIFFERENT TWOWARDS HIM AS HE IS TOWARDS ME!! ugh...i think i'm having an emotional breakdown...please help :(

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