Have you ever needed someone so bad?

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Registered: 07-27-2004
Have you ever needed someone so bad?
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Sat, 07-31-2004 - 10:58pm
What do you do when you cant sleep, cant think straight, cant think about anything but your ex?

I know I screwed things up and I probably deserve what Ive got but what now?

I dont want anyone else and dont know what to do.

Any advice?

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Registered: 08-04-2003
Sun, 08-01-2004 - 8:22am
Focus on you and your healing. Take care of you. Treat yourself the way you want others to treat you. Start journal writing. Vent on paper all that you feel. Grieve for what might have been, for what could have been, for what you hoped would have been. Even write him a few UNSENT letters to tell him how you feel about the situation, then burn it.


Carrie

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Registered: 07-31-2004
Sun, 08-01-2004 - 8:47am
I know how you feel. I am in a very similar situation. However, I know that my ex and I are NOT right for eachother and it is best that he ended things (I wouldn't have the strength to). We were fighting all the time. He showed me a 100 signs that he was not ready for a relationship but since we loved eachother I kept convincing him to stay. We moved in together in March and he just ended things on Friday. He has no where to go and wants to stay here on the couch. I cry constantly as it is and it will be SO much harder to have him in front of me every day but unavailable to me. I woke up at 6 a.m. this morning after going to bed at 2 a.m.

I know the feeling of can't eat, can't sleep, can't focus on anything else. My ex left for the weekend but wants to stay on the couch during the week to go to work etc. My friend stayed with me this weekend but is leaving tonight. I feel like I am going to lose my mind.

This is SO hard.

What are you doing to keep your mind off things? I joined this website and another one at msn health. I also joined friendfinder.com. I watch stupid sitcoms. My friend is here and we went to a movie last night.

I know that I will be o.k. eventually but it is so hard right now. I feel like I am on a roller coaster. Most of the time I am sad. Sometimes I feel happy and look forward to finding someone new. Then I get scared that I will choose someone who is horrible for me again. I don't think I have ever had a healthy relationship. I think that there is something wrong with me. Sometimes I get angry that I wasted two years of my life on this person. I am just a bundle of confusion and emotion.

Hang in there. I would like to say if it was meant to be, it will be, but right now those words don't help me too much either. So good luck and if you need someone to write to, I will be checking this board a lot. So I will respond. Check out my listing from yesterday too, if you are interested.

Good luck.

Sheri