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| Fri, 09-23-2005 - 2:00pm |
Well, my bf (I should say, ex, now) has decided to call it quits. He called it quits to me via email yesterday.
I was feeling ok about it. Shocked to have read it, but I was going on with my day. It didn't hit me until 3am this morning when I woke up for a second and heard a song on the radio that made me feel sad. The next 3 songs made me think about the relationship and I almost started crying! I told myself not to start because I have a busy day today and somehow, I was able to get back to sleep.
Today, I feel like crap - tired and upset. He's on my mind now and I can't seem to stop thinking about him. On top of that, my day is going horribly.
I don't know how I'm gonna feel tonight. I'm sure I'll start crying my eyes out when I listen to the radio. Isn't it the strangest thing that once you break up with somebody, practically all the songs remind you of him? Maybe it's just me.
Can anybody relate to what I'm saying or feeling? I'm trying to be strong about this break up - I don't see my counselor until next week.
Thanks for listening to my ramble.

thats how i just broke up with my bf on mon, by email......how long were you together?
mine was just too afraid to commit fully and well i want more so its sad and it hurts and I cry just thinking about it, but its all for the best. I really feel that if it isn't meant to be dont push it, because if you dont let go now then you might never and it will only get harder with time.....
There is someone out there for everyone I think and it will just take time.....I was with someone for 4 years and I thought I would marry him, but it didnt work out, then a guy for a year who was perfect with everything except the part of wanting to be with me the ammount a couple should be together, so I am still hurting and the best thing to do is cry and let it out as much as you can, and do that be sad its ok, but remember all the little things that you wanted and didn't have or things that bothered you about him, you only want to think of the good I'm sure, but thinking of the worse makes it easier
I've started stating things in my head about his flaws (just gotta jot them down when I find the chance!).
I think I read somewhere here on this board about making a playlist of happy, inspiring songs. I thought that was a great idea. I'm gonna download some tracks this weekend.
I'm not a person to watch or listen to terrible news, but what you say is true - at least I have my health, a roof over my head, etc. I didn't look at it that way.
We've been together for...and I'm reluctant to say because I know you'll be shocked to hear!...over a decade. The reason why we've been together this long is because we've been focusing on building our careers.
He was a great guy, but when he cheated on me a couple of years ago (and I took him back), I think it affected me from then on and I never completely healed.
I guess it was the best for us to split because like I mentioned before, the affair had an impact on me and I never healed completely. What you say about "...if you dont let go now then you might never and it will only get harder with time..." is so true. I had wanted to break up sooner, but I stuck it out for some strange reason - probably because I had no inner strength. Going to counseling has helped me with that.
True too that it's ok for me to be sad and to cry (and I'm sure I will!). I just hate having to go through that cycle (I'm sure nobody likes going through it either!), you know? Sigh...
We'll all make it through ok. I'm sure this moment we're having will pass.
Take care of yourself.
wow, yeah that is a long time.....my friend of 8 year and her guy broke up last year too and it was hard, but it was for the best........I just think its harder for women in general most of time.....
The fact of the cheating, I would prob never get over because there is the chance it could happen again in your head and who wants to get hurt or even think about getting hurt like that again :9
Life will move on .......I guess time is just needed......as much as it stinks.....:( :)