Is he going to end it?
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Is he going to end it?
| Mon, 11-27-2006 - 8:44pm |
I have been dating my boyfriend for about a year and i am afraid that I have crossed a line he will not forgive me for. We have been struggling alot lately due to the fact that he does not have a job and I feel like he has been taking his frustration out on me. I know how hard it must be for him right now but I feel like I have been very supportive and still not being treated the greatest. Not that I expect alot right not but it would be nice to feel like he appreciates me instead of feeling like I just frustrate him all the time.
Anyway, about 6 months ago we broke up for about a week. I was at a work party (a little intoxicated) and one of my co-workers leaned in and kissed me. I did not kiss him back but I did not pull away either. He was very sweet and sincere and very interested in me. Although I was interested in him at the time, in the end I decided to patch things up with my bf.
I'm not sure what came over me Wednesday night but out of nowhere I started to think about this kiss I had and made a very bad decision. I sent my co-worker a text message saying these exact words: "I tell you this in confidence (because I do have a bf) but I never forgot the kiss and I think about it alot."
The very next night my boyfriend went through my phone when I was sleeping and found the text message. Needless to say he is very hurt. He told me that he needs time to get over this but I'm afraid that time won't be enough.
I'm a very insecure person and I know that part of why I did what I did was for attention. I do not like my co-worker and I know how wrong it was to string him along like that. I love my boyfriend and I would do anything to take back what I did. But I'm afriad there is no justifiable reason to do such a thing. So how do I fix this??? Will he be able to forgive me?
Anyway, about 6 months ago we broke up for about a week. I was at a work party (a little intoxicated) and one of my co-workers leaned in and kissed me. I did not kiss him back but I did not pull away either. He was very sweet and sincere and very interested in me. Although I was interested in him at the time, in the end I decided to patch things up with my bf.
I'm not sure what came over me Wednesday night but out of nowhere I started to think about this kiss I had and made a very bad decision. I sent my co-worker a text message saying these exact words: "I tell you this in confidence (because I do have a bf) but I never forgot the kiss and I think about it alot."
The very next night my boyfriend went through my phone when I was sleeping and found the text message. Needless to say he is very hurt. He told me that he needs time to get over this but I'm afraid that time won't be enough.
I'm a very insecure person and I know that part of why I did what I did was for attention. I do not like my co-worker and I know how wrong it was to string him along like that. I love my boyfriend and I would do anything to take back what I did. But I'm afriad there is no justifiable reason to do such a thing. So how do I fix this??? Will he be able to forgive me?

Me 31, DH27, married may2008 went off b/c at that time, no af, PCOS since 17. MTHFR factor. HSG clear, 1st round of clomid 100mg, 1000 mg Metforim late July 09, Waiting to see if O'd.
It's one thing for your bf to know that during the 'break up' something might of happened. It's another to find out that you still 'think about it'. Since you admit to being insecure, if you had found that type of text that he sent another woman, how would you feel? Would you be able to forgive and forget, move on or would it plague you with doubts about the relationship, is he still thinking of the kiss, of the girl, does he really want to be with you? I'm sure your bf is wondering the same thing.
I agree with the previous poster - full disclosure. I also suggest you go to counseling on your own to work on your insecurities, need for attention outside your relationship and your self-esteem.
Carrie