He had a moment of weakness?
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| Fri, 06-03-2005 - 8:17pm |
Ugh. So last weekend I begged and pleaded with my ex to take me back. I was the one that ended the relationship, but I got jealous when he went out with another girl and thought I made a mistake in leaving him. I desperately wanted to give things another try. He said that he had come to agree with the reasons I gave him for my leaving, and that he didn't want to get back together.
So, last night I went to bed early because I had a horrible headache. When I woke up this morning I noticed that he had called last night after I had gone to bed. This seemed odd, because we had agreed that we wouldn't talk for a little while. I called him this afternoon after I got off work and asked what was up, and he said that he had been having "a moment of weakness".
I was just satarting to stabilize again. I was just starting to remember why I had left in the first place, feel normal, and okay with what was going on. I'm still feeling somewhat vulnerable after this weekend, and with him saying this to me it has me questioning again. He quickly told me after he confessed his moment that he was okay now, and it had passed. So why did he tell me in the first place? Why didn't he make something up?
I honestly don't know what I would do right now if he said he wanted to give things another try. On the one hand, my reasons were good... on the other hand they were all things that COULD have been worked out if we had had better communication. We were together for 2.5 years, engaged, lived togehter, he had a wonderful relationship with my daughter... This sucks.

*Update* So, apparently his "moment of weakness" wasn't him wanting to get back together. Instead it was just that he had called me when we had agreed not to do that.
I'm really thinking that this no contact thing is the best idea. It's hard right now because I agreed when I moved out to help him with the rent for June, so I still have to talk to him for a little while longer (because he's going to pay me back later in the summer). Bleh.