Hellppp.... I miss him.
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| Sat, 09-01-2007 - 1:38am |
I posted before about how he was my best friend and it's so hard not to talk to him... and someone replied (I forget who now, sorry) that I should just write kind of a diary thing like notes to my best friend.
Well I've been doing that and it's been helping a little - thanks.
But I want to talk to him SO bad. I know it will hurt, though, because he would want that too and because the love is still there and because we can't be together right now - if we'll be able to ever depends on him and what he's willing to do to fix his problems.
I said NC not only because we'd still want each other and the hurt of that but because we agreed to move on as much as possible and not wait for him, and I'm afraid of hearing things I don't want to know about. Even later on if he meets someone and that's what makes him happiest... I feel crushed again probably and I just don't need that.
But GOD I wanna talk to him I want to tell him about my new city and all these things I keep noticing that he'd love, etc. etc. and I know he'd love to hear.
It's awful.
