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| Wed, 10-13-2004 - 7:39am |
I think I love my ex boyfriend.. but he has done some not so nice things and he continues to definately not act as a friend. The tension between us is too much .. as much as I would like to erase my memory .. I cant. I wake up everyday thinking about him and I catch myself during the day thinking about him or the events we have gone through.. if someone could give me som advice or tips on how to get this guy outta my head.. I would appreciate it. Im soo sick of waking everymorning with a sad feeling and him all in my head. Thank you!!
Michelle
Michelle

because I know exactly how you are feeling! It is SO hard to let go and move on, isn't it? My ex has been treating me horribly ever since we broke up...and even though he's obviously moved on (he has a new girlfriend), I just can't seem to...
Like your ex, mine has done some shady things that I never knew about until we broke up...you would think that knowing this would make it easy for me to forget him. But it doesn't--even though I KNOW I'll be better off without him in the end.
I still think about my ex all the time too. Sometimes I have really mean thoughts...I'm still really angry with him for lying to/cheating on/hurting me. I still feel like he owes me closure...but I'm beginning to see that he will never give me that. He doesn't have the decency in him to even respond when I try to contact him...he will never admit that he did anything wrong, or apologize. He has always blamed me for what happened between us and I'm sure that will never change, no matter how hard I try. I used to blame myself for all of it too...and while I still know that I didn't handle things very well, I'm trying to make myself stop feeling so guilty. He had me convinced that he had done nothing wrong, and that I was the bad guy...but I can see now that we were both at fault. I just hate that there's so much tension between us...not that we ever see each other or even talk. But I don't like leaving things like this...knowing that we ended on horrible terms. I don't want him to hate me (even though he's a jerk) and I don't want him to think that I hate him...because honestly, I do want him to end up happy. I do get jealous about his new girlfriend...but if he's found someone special, then good for him. I'm glad for him despite all the hurt he's caused me...and I would hope that he would feel the same way if I met someone. But who knows, right? We shouldn't care what our ex'es think of us...it's just hard.
We've just gotta keep our heads up and continue living life, right? I know we can do it...it's all a matter of time. Good luck with your situation and take care :)