Humiliation

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Registered: 07-31-2007
Humiliation
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Fri, 08-24-2007 - 1:43pm
It was 1 month of N/C yesterday.
I went through the not eating, sleeping, crying, etc.
All the normal things. I have no desire to call him anymore. I just have these fleeting thoughts of has he moved on, does he ever think about me, etc.
Now looking back he was trying to tell me it was over and I was too naive to realize it. I was giving him the benefit of being by himself and getting his life back on track.
I had called him a couple (maybe 3) 2 of those calls were crying I miss you and so happy to hear your voice, etc. He told me he loved me, missed me and wanted me to come visit when he got settled in. I sent him a really nice gift with a card that was telling him I was supportive of his decision to move back home and wrote a poem encouraging his decision. In the card I told him he was an amazing person and would be very successful.
Anyway, now looking back, I feel like I will be the crazy, stalking ex girlfriend that couldn't take the hint.
I feel humiliated whenever I think back to our conversations. He never directly said do not call me (in so many words anyway). Is this a normal phase as well?
I wish I had initiated the N/C 2 months ago. I highly recommend it.
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Registered: 02-05-2007
In reply to: lanis2007
Fri, 08-24-2007 - 3:08pm

Hi lanis,


Forgive yourself and don't be too hard on yourelf.