Hurting..

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Registered: 01-17-2004
Hurting..
Thu, 06-09-2005 - 9:37pm
My bf and I broke up a few weeks ago, but we were best friends before that and we decided that we need to work on our friendship again. I still am living in the same house because I can not afford to move out. The best thing we thought was that we have been friends through a lot and we can remain friends. I must admit I was skeptical.
Tonight he was upset about something (he does not even remember what), but he took it out on me and was just so mean. He is usually like that when he is upset. He takes it out on me. I usually just try to ignore it. I am by no means perfect, so I figure that I need to give him some credit.
Tonight I made a comment that I am not helpless, and he said that I act it at times. That hurt me SO deeply since I am always doing things for him and any time I EVER ask him to do anything it is for himself. Example...he eats cereal in the mornings and I will ask him to get some milk. Not for me...for HIM! It is just so frustrating that he said that and I know he means it.
So I am sitting here saying to myself I am NEVER EVER going to ask him for another thing. No matter if it helps him or not! It is just not worth it. I guess I have learned that it is not possible for he and I to be friends like we were before. I know that I need to move out, but I can not do it because I have a HUGE debt, so I have to make the best of this while I am stuck here.
Thanks for anyone that read this. I do not need any advice. I just need some place to vent.