Hurting and confused

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Registered: 03-22-2004
Hurting and confused
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Tue, 05-03-2005 - 11:11am
I am so out of it and having a hard time dealing with everything. I don't know why I can't move forward. I know it's over but I just can't seem to accept it. It is so easy for him, he goes out with his friends and they talk about me. My ex and I are friends with a couple that we have known for a long time and he has been talking to her about our relationship breaking up. She won't call me but she will talk to him about what is going on. Then he comes and tells me what she says to him. More stress. I just cannot handle this. I am so physically and emotionally drained that I can barely make it to work. And living in the same town and the possibility of seeing him out with another woman makes me sick. I feel awful. It is so easy for him to just dismiss me and the last 3 years. I am having a hard time today.
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Registered: 02-23-2005
Tue, 05-03-2005 - 11:23am
Awww sweetie, of course it's hard right now. You are still having to see him and talk to him, and you are suppose to act like everything is ok?? I don't think anyone could handle it very gracefully. Sounds like you are being strong on the outside and thats ok right now. I know inside you are sad and hurt and maybe even mad at him for doing this. I promise it will get easier as soon as you get your own place. You will have so many less reminders of him and you will be so busy with decorating and unpacking and meeting new people. Hang in there for this little bit, and avoid him if at all possible. It's so hard to heal with him right there. See if you can find friends that have nothing to do with him and hang out with them more. When you start to feel down, make yourself think of something else, something that makes you laugh or write down all the little things about him that irked you. There was a thread on one of these about ex's disgusting habits, it is hilarious to read through. You are gonna get through this, one day at a time. I'll be thinking about you!! warm hugs
Grace
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Registered: 03-22-2004
Tue, 05-03-2005 - 11:45am
I started crying when I read your message. I feel so relieved to have found this message board. I am just no good at breaking up. I gave him my heart and being rejected has got to be one of the absolute worst things you could ever do to another human being. Especially when you love them. I know it will get better when I can get out of there but it still hard to leave. How screwed up am I? I am just hurting so bad right now. Thank you for your response, I really am blessed to have a place to post my story even if it doesn't make sense.