I am always breaking NC rule
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I am always breaking NC rule
| Sat, 01-06-2007 - 9:18am |
Here's my story I was married to this man in 2000 we were divorced a year later I has some health problems came out of nowhere, blood clots ended up losing my left leg! So he divorced me a year before I lost my leg but he knew it was bound to happen. after divorced we had absolutely NC for a year then he called. We started meeting at different places for sex and I would go home without him every time crying and feeling like a tramp because I was sneaking around to see a man that i was so much in love with, Well this has continued for four years! yep I let him use me and i settled for whatever amount of time i could get from him for all those years well in last nine months things had become more serious he practically was living with me again! He's in and out he gets mad he leaves I can never depend on the fact that he will always be there...it's been so confusing this man has left me with my mouth hanging to the ground so many times just constant confusion not sure what we have. So we get very close again everything goes good but i'm wanting something more not marriage just a commitment of SOME kind, I told him i need to KNOW that he will be there for me well he's not willing to give me that he left agian this time dint calll or answers his callls for couple days but broke the rule last night lol he callled to check up on me wanted to know what we were going to do? I got the impression that he was looking for my permission so he can move on and sleep with other women which he has done plenty of in past four years! I know I deserve better than this I have no one really to talk to my friends are actually tired of hearing the same old story...someone please talk to me help me get through this.....I have read a lot of post here and all were very inspiring.....I feel like such a fool for letting this man do this to me for so long...

I thought I was ready part of Kate Winslet's character's story from The Holiday...have you seen it?
Have you consider counseling to help you break from this guy? You may know you deserve better but you don't BELIEVE it yet.
Reading material to consider:
How to Break Your Addiction to a Person by Howard M. Halpern
Facing Love Addiction, Pia Mellody
Hopefully someone will have some good advice for you.
Carrie