I am going backwards
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| Fri, 08-12-2005 - 12:28pm |
....Oh why??? why?? I have come this far and I am going backwards. My ex dumped me 5 weeks ago, we were toghether 7 years. Lots of ups and downs, lot of breakups, and this is the longest ever with NC. He was a BAD bf so this should make it easier to let go and move on...
I was doing just that, I was sailing along, doing great, keeping busy, going to party after party, seeing lots of freinds. Well, I am tired, I am ready to settle myself down to a more quiet life. I want him back, I want to call, I want to text, I want to see him, I want to be held, I want what was familiar to me.....
I didn't cry too much at first, I am doing it all now. I think because we had broken up many times before and there was contact during those breakups. I think it is finally sinking in that this time is the last time.
Thanks for letting me vent.....I am very sad today

I think the fact that you ran into him a few days ago is what's causing this setback. That is totally NORMAL. Recognize that and don't take any action for the time being. Tell yourself that if you still feel this way, say, 2 weeks from now, you can contact him (but by then hopefully you won't need to).
Sheri